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[Apr 28, 2006 | 2:03pm] |
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I tend to have a issue with clinging to one person. I have a really hard time dating more than one person. To me, It just doesn't feel right. I hate the fact that I like him but yet he's going to end up going on a date with another girl. He told me I can do the same but he will be jealous. I dunno, I find all this shit so confusing. I've tried to get myself to do it, but I just think about him. Not just because who he is but because I care about someone's feelings when it comes to that. I do have one person in mind who I'd like to get to know better, But I just feel like I'm being untrue to him in a sense.
He tells me that he likes me a lot and that I am perfect inside and out. So how can he want to go out with someone else? I know we do have an issue with distance, but isn't that why we try to see each other as much as possible? I know I wasn't used, but I just feel it for some reason and just not sure why. We get along so well and he tells me that I'm perfect for him and I do a lot for him. I don't know, It just hurts so much. I think I just need to brush it off and move on. And if we end up together then good, if not then fine...
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| Ok that's just stupid |
[Apr 26, 2006 | 2:58pm] |
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In my last entry I bitched about some retard, well he messaged me this morning asking if I sent him a Trojen and if I did then that wasn't cool! LMAO wtf?! Why would I go that far over that?
Last night I was in just a bad mood. I was so upset. I was supposed to go out, and that didn't work out =( I wasn't happy. And then he was supposed to call me RIGHT back! But I never received a phone call! I hate when people do that, say they'll call you right back but don't and just go out. Jerks! lol
Well my step-father and I are doing a little better. We still aren't speaking but tension isn't as high as it was before. He's just always in a pissy mood and that usually gets me in a pissy mood so that doesn't work out well. I dunno...If everything works out between him and I then I won't have anything to worry about =)
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| That's grimey |
[Apr 24, 2006 | 6:31pm] |
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Wow, I never thought a dude could be so upset about being turned down...My 'friend' wanted a myspace page. So I take the time to make him the graphic and code EVERYTHING for him exactly the way he wanted. Well he got upset cuz I wasn't trying to hook up with him. I go to myspace this morning to find that he deleted me. So I'm thinking he deleted his account or something. NOPE! Dude deleted me! But...Kept the shit that I made him. On top of that he had a special section for friends and deleted my picture off of it and tried to replace it with another girl. The pic was like 10 pixels too big lol! I was heated! So I got into his account and deleted my shit. I didn't fuck with anything of his or nothing.
But he ends up calling me asking why I did it and how I did it. I told him not to fucking worry about it. And he kept asking and shit and I just told him to fuck off and hung up on him. I dunno...I find that grimey. He ended up messaging me saying that he did it because I never told him I was leaving for a couple days and yadda yadda. I told him, You ain't my man so why do I have to let you know?! He's got issues...
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[Apr 24, 2006 | 11:00am] |
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I have this issue with feeling guilty. I hate hurting people's feelings. And I never try to (unless they piss me off in some way). It's like, If I do one thing...Then it's going to hurt someone but make someone else happy. I wish I could be those girls that can blow someone off and not give a fuck. But I can't. If I'm going to let someone down or show no interest I do it lightly. I know what it's like to be blown off, why the hell would I want to do that to someone else? My ex, family, friends, and counselor told me that I think about other people first and way too much and I need to put myself first for once. I don't look at it that way, but I mean...How do I do that? And how could I live with myself if I do that?
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| New! |
[Apr 4, 2006 | 11:26am] |
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I finally got a livejournal again! Hopefully this time I can keep this shit updated. I think I'm getting rid of my personal domain for a while and using this.
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